Im semi embarrassed to admit that I dont think my Gaydar is not working like it used to. To be clear I have NO problem with gay people...I just dont want to be dating a gay man, as Im sure a lot of straight women dont. And lately, according to the 'dar' everybody's gay.
I say this because I find myself either questioning a man's masculinity or excusing it. For instance, I met a guy who was VERY close with his friend, they were hitting each other, he even bit him lovingly. For me, I thought that was EXTREMELY gay. I dont know, like love taps or something, then I felt bad and like I was being closed minded. Maybe, just maybe that was their relationship and they were just two straight men not afraid to show their love to each other...but even that sounds gay.
To make a not so long story even shorter, I gave one of them my number. But then never kept in contact.
Another guy I was actually involved with was really cool. He is really attactive and has a lot of good qualities, but in my imagination I can see him being gay. He's cute and friendly and friends with a few guys I suspect to be gay ( I am aware that this is an unfair judgement) so I cant help but to think 'birds of a feather'...
This is happening pretty commonly, so either Im attracting gay guys (I do live in Atlanta) OR Im becoming jaded. Either way, I dont like it. I would like to meet a man who has a balance of masculinity and sensitivity without feeling like he swings for the other team.
#thatisall #semirant
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